“To walk a spiritual path is to continually step out into the unknown.” -Wallace Huey

I wanted to start this blog off by giving a little background on who i am. My name is Amanda Rivera, I’m 27 years old. Im a mother of two little girls, and a Licensed Vocational Nurse here in Texas. Im also an intuitive empath. I wasn’t aware of my gifts until I experienced my spiritual awakening. Growing up i did not have a stable nurturing environment, my dad was alcoholic, professional musician, whom i only met 4-5 times my whole life. I am his only child.He ended up passing away when i was 16. My mother who raised me also had her own battles with addiction. As a child, i was naturally independent and self-reliant. I have a younger brother and sister. My brother lived with and was raised by his dad. My younger sister and I are 8 years apart and it wasn’t until my sister was about 2 that my mothers addiction took off for the worse. Naturally, I felt a responsibility for my younger sister and her well-being. It wasn’t that my mother wasn’t around, she was…she was just constantly high and chasing her next high. My mom never really was a parent, we had a more ‘friend’ relationship instead of the typical mother-daughter relationship i needed. Anyways i never realized how hostile my environment was growing up, and i thought it was normal. I also never realized the extent it had on me and shaping the person i was as an adult. Being an empath, and sensitive to others emotions and feelings, i could always feel tension building up and i would always do my best to be the peacemaker and avoid conflicts. This caused me to unconsciously become a people pleaser, most likely because i was seeking the attention and affection i never received growing up. I was also very confused on my own feelings and articulating them so i repressed alot of my own feelings and emotions which overtime would build up and cause explosive emotional outbursts over something irrelevant . I also thought this was normal. It wasnt until I experienced my spiritual awakening that my perception began to shift on everything i thought i knew and on who i thought i was. An awakening is one of the confusing, and scariest things to go through alone. At the time you don’t understand anything your experiencing and i was isolated, scared, and thought i was going crazy for a moment. This was when my intuition began to develop, that voice inside my head…and to be clear…its not the same voice as your ego(the one that feeds you fear, and doubts). It was a voice that was guiding me and thoroughly explaining to me, how all of the traumatic events, repressed feelings and emotions from my life that i never expressed needed to released. This inner voice also educated me on the importance of allowing myself to authentically feel these emotions and release them. Its also not an experience that many others can relate to, so you do begin to think ‘am i crazy? Where is all this coming from?’ I didnt have anyone that could relate to what i was going through so i was scared and alone…but i also knew with every single piece of me that this voice was right and its guidance was allowing me to heal and after I experienced my first healing, I felt so much love and appreciation for myself! It allowed me to become consciously aware of the person I thought I was. It changed my perspective on everything from religion, values, the psychological conditioning of people (in general), and my existence. I knew that my life experiences served a purpose growing up but i also knew that I wasnt allowing them to define me. I am on the path of redefining who I am, while continually healing and evolving. Im learning to develop my gifts daily. The whole purpose of this blog is in hopes to help others who might be starting on their awakening and experiencing that fear, confusion, and overwhelming feeling os isolation. I want you to know that you are not alone! And you most definitely are not crazy, even if it may feel that way. I hope that by starting this blog i may help shed some light on what to expect and how I navigated through some of the more difficult times. Also, I want others to never feel like they don’t have anyone that understands what they are going through and that I am here if you need me. If you have any questions or concerns i can try to use my knowledge and experience to assist you, even if that means just being here and listening to you vent. Because I too remember how it felt just wishing i had somebody, anyone i could vent to that could relate. So with that said, Welcome to: the road less traveled. Feel free to email me with any of your questions or concerns, or to just talk at: amandakrivera1213@icloud.com

Have a Divine day.